This quote really grabbed me at the end of this past year. I know I have been so many people in my short 39 years. I have been a pendulum swinging from confident to uncertain. I know what I like, but am usually too timid to share my thoughts and interests, mostly because I think others will find it boring. Also, I tend to keep my opinions to myself more because most of my opinions have changed throughout my life, and I've had to eat my words!
I've never been fond of debate because I can too often see both sides. If I had lived my life in someone else's shoes, had all of their experiences, I might have the same ideas and do the same type things. So now, I fear that I am viewed as boring, not sharing a lot.
But another issue I have is that when I find people annoying or tiresome, I often think it's because they have a trait that I see in myself. I don't want to be the kind of person that talks incessantly or only talks about certain topics or politics.
I am very excited to start up this blog again. I mean it to be a place that I can share what I think and feel. A place to, as it is said, "Let my geek flag fly," and not worry about it, because if you are here, it's because you want to be!
But back to the quote, I have managed to retain a lot of friends and acquaintances from the different lives that I have lived, and am often embarrassed when I talk to them after a long time. I think it is because I am not the same, and I think others expect me to be so. Or maybe I'm embarrassed about how I used to be and don't want them to hold me to my old actions. What choice have they though? That is the only "me" they ever knew.
Before I quit teaching a had a coworker get *very* surprised to hear me utter a swear word. I just chuckled to myself and thought, "If you only knew..."
Any-who, it's New Year's Day. Time for new beginnings and fresh starts. I'm not so good with resolutions. I'm more of a goal setter. Here are the goals I am aiming towards this year:
1. Learn the pressure canner
2. Can my own tomatoes this summer
3. Set aside a 15-20 minute reading time for the family each day
4. Have a 'No Technology/TV' day once a week
*5. Be me and don't worry too much about what other people think about it.
And there you have it. A little peeky-poo into more about me.
I'm sharing...This is kind of a big deal to me!
I hope you all have a **stellar** 2014 where all your goals are met and your children never whine! ;)
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